Change
In the span of five days my life changed completely - I ended a three year relationship and my father passed away. To say I love these men deeply would be an understatement so the loss is almost palpable. It feels as if my head is in a fog and I can't shake it. I'm just hoping that there is some truth to the cliche that time heals.
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posted by Lady Julia @ 3:36 PM
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Entangled States
The long shadows run with the red slow light
of the setting sun, offering a dream.
The western sea prepares to greet the night
and the wind is a whisper'd touch unseen.
The names of worldly things are put aside.
The entire scene is now just as it is,
naked without interpretation or lies,
complete in its own true beauty and bliss.
Only the kindred soul knows what I feel
at times when the moment makes me its own.
First love maintains connections that are real
in spite of how distance and time have grown.
When the nameless moves me to pure wonder,
I send silence to you as metaphor.
Time works hand in hand with love to heal all. (I doubt that one can function well without the other.) We know this healing happens from what people who have been through the same thing tell us. It is not fiction, no matter how difficult it is to believe when one is so close to loss. One has to live it to realize it, but can hopefully take some comfort from the words of friends.
Pain fades. Change is certain.
Arafin
Why does it say about a Domme when someone dumps her?
Sorry about your father.
What does it say about someone who would take a potshot like that?
Feh.
Lady Julia, our thoughts are with you. Yes, your head is in a fog, and yes, time will heal.
I don't have any words of wisdom or insight at the moment. In fact, the only thing that came to mind was to send you something that might be a little bit cheering.
Okay, yeah, it's stupid, but sometimes it can't hurt to disengage your brain for a bit.
And you know that you can count on us - well, most of us - if you need to talk.
Lady Julia didn't say how her relationship ended, only that it did. She has too much class to discuss any details here. No one would accuse you of having too much class or guts Anonymous. Relationships end for many reasons. Be a grownup and respect that.
"Why does it say about a Domme when someone dumps her?"
What kind of presumptive arrogant ass would make an assumption like that? (Tom's and Bill's comments were better stated, but I'm not as inclined to be kind or patient with boorish bullies).
Dear Lady Julia,
As i was driving alone to the beach house after dark tonight and winding my way along remote stretches of the coastal highway, i meandered through fog almost all along the way. Sometimes it was thick giving me little idea of what lay before me. Deer were numerous on the road, and navigating along the misty mountainous sections involved abrupt drops as much as 1000 feet to the rocky surf below. All these things were looming in the darkness.
But i arrived safely at our remote beach house with the most amazing bright and spectacular display of stars and a clear milky way awaiting above me.
Listen carefully to Your heart as You make Your way slowly, know that on the other side of the fog, the brightness and clarity of the sun, moon and stars and gentle ocean breezes await to greet You.
Allow Your gentle soul to mourn in peace as You make Your way. This road will also lead to comfort, clarity and resolution in time.
Lady Julia,
It is about doors. Life has allowed you to leave a bit of your past. Pain at first but then you will find new freedoms - new doors to open. New wonderful places to be. You have no idea how much your words have saved me in the past, when I allowed myself to go under for a low point in my life. Your life has a unique purpose and there will be more to do. The specialness inside each of us, even you is huge.
So take time to grieve, there is a design and the world gives what you need. Don't stay hidden from yourself too long because that is not your way nor the way of a peaceful warrior who has more laughter, tears, love and spirit to give. You will find your door and it will be good. Be well and travel safe. JT
PS: The sunrise over the San Juan Islands are beautiful this morning. The sun is warm on my face. Comfort is all around you and it comes in little pieces so they are easier to hold on to. Remember what use to make you feel like a child again and flow with it.
Why do you publish bullshit comments like the one about you being dumped? Don't you have more self-respect than that?
Nothing is perfect. Everything has a crack in it. That is how the light gets in...
Lady Julia, I am very sorry to hear that your father has passed away. It is obvious from all you have written that you loved him very much.
I am also sorry to hear that your relationship with Rook has ended. I remember the many wonderful things you have written about him in some of your emails to me. You owe none of us an explanation. I will only say that any man who is loved by you is a lucky man. I am sure he will always treasure that love.
I am thinking of you during this difficult time Lady Julia. If you need anything please do not hesitate to ask.
Lady Julia... I can only add that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
As for the other comments, all I can think is ... 'Unbelievable'. We have so many morons on this planet.
My sincerest sympathies Lady Julia.
Lady Julia will you be seeking a new submissive and if you will what are you going to be looking for?
Lady Julia,
i'm so sorry to hear of Your losses. You are such an empath, a giving person who touches people. i hope it's possible for You to do special things for Yourself, take time to heal and regain equilibrium.
"Lady Julia will you be seeking a new submissive and if you will what are you going to be looking for?"
(Shaking head)
The lady is GRIEVING over the loss of her father and her relationship. Do you REALLY think now is the time to ask this?
"What does it say about someone who would take a potshot like that?"
I wasn't taking pot shots. I'm sincerely trying to help this woman. She's miserable and doesn't understand why. She has some people who are fawning all over her out of desperation to find some semblance of domination even if it is Domme-lite with artificial flavoring and they're not being truthful with her and maybe not with themselves.
Thank you all for the words of support. It means a lot.
Tom said, In fact, the only thing that came to mind was to send you something that might be a little bit cheering.
Okay, yeah, it's stupid, but sometimes it can't hurt to disengage your brain for a bit.
Even though it was a bit silly it made me laugh - thanks for that. :)
Ben asked, Lady Julia will you be seeking a new submissive and if you will what are you going to be looking for?
I'll be looking for someone with a high profile corporate position - someone very, very powerful, who is not only rich from working but has inherited millions of dollars, someone who has an IQ of at least 150, and someone who has been blessed by nature in unbelievable ways not only in size but in skill and who can also breathe through his ears.
In all seriousness, Ben, I have no plans on looking.
I have not been keeping up with your blog (My apologies) so only just read about your father and Rook and want to just say that I am thinking about you.
WRT the comment from anonymous 1
"She has some people who are fawning all over her out of desperation to find some semblance of domination even if it is Domme-lite with artificial flavoring and they're not being truthful with her and maybe not with themselves"
I do not see any fawning; I just see a group of people who have great respect for an absolutely wonderful lady.......a lady who brings the true meaning of the word "lady" into being. I respect Her and I have no requirement to be "Dominated" I can Dominate Myself quite adequately :-)
Thank you, BW - you're a lovely person.
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