All Those Little "Whys" In Life

I'm sure most of us spend at least a little time reflecting on the "whys" in life. Why do I like chocolate so much? Why do I cry when total strangers express their happiness and excitement over winning at a game show? Why am I dominant?

As for the first two riveting questions - well, it really isn't important. It just is what it is ;) The answer to the remaining question does hold a lot more interest for me.

Like most I have spent quite a bit more time wondering how I ended up being dominant, not just in my general interactions with people (I am very much a leader and I think I possess a very persuasive manner) but also how I ended up being sexually dominant. Specifically how did I come to find dominating a man sexually to be such a strong turn-on? Logically I'm sure there were a lot of contributing factors, those I can identify and those that I can't, but I think perhaps I have pinpointed the beginning.

Not too long ago I was talking with someone and we were discussing our memories of the first time we each had masturbated. Even though that was a long time ago, as we spoke I began to vividly remember that day. My brothers, like many boys their age, had their own little stash of porn magazines. Even though I knew this, for the longest time I had no interest in such things especially as I thought they were all just a collection of naked women photos. Then came the day I heard them speak of "the stories".

Now that little collection of pulp had my attention. Pictures of naked women did nothing for me but for as long as I could remember I had been able to immerse myself in stories and experience them vividly in my mind. At this point in my life I had heard enough about sex to know that this definitely sounded like the perfect sort of stories for me to read and "experience" ;)

Driven by curiosity and the urge to do something a little daring, I sneaked into their room and took a peak at the first piece of fine literature I found stashed in the back of their closet. Penthouse? Hmm.. this wonderful source of reference offered a section where reader's shared stories of their "real life" sexcapades. Settling in I began to immerse myself in the tale of a young man's education at the hands of his therapist.

It would seem "Bob" was a young man who had little experience with one of life's greatest physical pleasures. Shy and embarrassed, he confessed to his 6' tall, blonde Amazon of a therapist of his need to be taken in hand and thoroughly educated. Well.. what else could an incredibly sexy and slightly older woman do but show him the way? After having him disrobe, she sat her pantiless self on the edge of her desk, pulled him to her, wrapped her legs around him and led him to that most perfect of places. Bob of course was elated with the situation and even more excited to find that the therapist wanted more.

Before Bob could object she led him to the back of her desk and pushed him underneath. His education wasn't complete until he knew how to sate her desires both orally and digitally. She held his head, not allowing him to stop even when the secretary walked in, dropped paperwork on her desk, and paused to ask a question. He wasn't allowed to stop even while she took a quick call from her boss. How could she hide this so well while they were in the office yet be so expressively appreciative when they were alone? What if they were caught? After bringing her to climax a number of times, the therapist assured him he was more than proficient and informed him the session was over.

Later that evening that story returned to my mind and I found myself getting lost in it, happily enjoying not only my first experience in the art of self-pleasure and but also my first exposure to what I now realize was sexual dominance.

Until we discussed our "firsts" I hadn't really consciously remembered those details. I'm still not sure if something dominant inside me led me to get lost in that story or if something in that story started me on the path of sexual dominance. I tend to think it was a little of both. Either way I'm glad I'm here ;)