The R*d Silk Experience

Before I tell you about the fun I had last week with some of the fellas in my yahoogroup, I thought I should back up and tell you about what happened the week before.

Let me preface this by stressing something that all the fellas in my group have been told quite candidly. I have no desire to take hoards of submissives as my own nor am I searching for a boyfriend. I'm very well taken care of in that department ;) I'm very careful because I do not ever want to mislead or hurt anyone in any way. In my hypnosis MP3s I work really hard to make certain I don't "tie" anyone to me via hypnotic suggestion.

That said, I am very fond of those people that I've come to know via our very frank group discussions. There are some very sweet submissive fellas in my group who have not ever and whom may not ever have the chance to experience the control of a dominant woman. For awhile I've toyed with the idea of allowing them to experience a taste of control. I decided a couple of weeks ago to offer them their chance.

First, I told them days ahead of time to find and tuck away something that had a silky feel (like boxers, a tie, or something similiar). Then I let them stew for several days wondering what I had up my sleeve. I teased a little, laughed to myself a lot, and thoroughly enjoyed preparing them. Then, the day before the "event", I recorded their instructions via MP3 and posted it along with the addendum below.

"When you prepare to listen to the MP3, allow that piece of silk that you've been touching all day to touch one of the pleasure spots on your body (smiles - you can choose where ;) ). Leave it there as you listen. Yes, you may touch when listening, but whereever your choose to touch, let the silk be a nice, soft, sexy barrier. Make sense?"

(I'll add here that you can download and listen to the Silk MP3 if you are so inclined.)

Well, the experiment was a wonderful success. Those who participated professed to having a great experience and I know I certainly did. Part of the excitement for me was in reading their responses and learning about what went on in their minds as they were participating. I'll share one post here now (with Will's permission) and select a couple more tomorrow to share.

Will Walker wrote:

My first reaction was that this was a brilliant idea. I know Lady
Julia wondered how it would be received, but I can't imagine why
there would be any problem. It's an inventive step, and I was
excited about giving it a try from the first. No fear, but plenty
of arousal here. And curiosity. I certainly wanted to follow Lady
Julia's instructions to the letter.

As I seemed to be more aware of the silk as the day went on, my
feelings just continued to grow stronger and stronger. It's amazing
what that contact did to me. It was a constant reminder of what I
was doing, and that made me feel so close to this fine Lady.

This really gives me my first inkling of what it feels like to serve
someone, and it felt great!!! It's easy to get turned on for a
Domme, and that's basically all I've been involved with on the
internet. But this exercise showed me how much I would enjoy almost
every kind of assignment for Her. Everything about this was done
for Her pleasure, not mine or ours, and I've been alive with the
thrill of that all day. I feel like I'm on a quest for Her, and
I've been getting little chills of happiness about that from the
start.

This may be my first real understanding of how one can feel deep
satisfaction and contentment, without any personal reward (as in,
release). I've never served a Mistress, and I've wondered about how
I'd react, if I was involved in activities that did not focus on my
own needs. Now I know that I would still feel great pleasure, in a
totally different way. This was, indeed, an education.

Funny, before I started, I saw this as a way to repay Lady Julia for
the many ways She's offered us Her support and guidance. I saw it
as something I was doing for Her. But as the time passed, I found I
was even more grateful to Her for giving me this chance to expand my
horizons. Now, I see She's still giving, and this was one of Her
best-ever gifts. Now I owe Her even more!

This morning I found myself posting a long message in this group,
feeling even more involved than before. I like to write, but it's
usally a chore. This time my words just poured out. I also sent
Her an e-mail to thank Her again. I've been bursting to become more
involved now, and my thoughts have never flowed so freely.

I relayed to Lady Julia what happened when I went out to pick up
lunch. The lady clerk at the Whataburger (I'm such a gourmet) had a
soft Southern accent, which reminded me of Lady Julia's incredible
voice. I just sat there, listening to her announce the orders, with
a goofy grin on my face. When she called my number, I could barely
stand up straight!

The only other problem came during my afternoon swim. Not wanting
to get my silk wet, I left it beside the pool. That's when my dogs
grabbed it and had a growling tug of war all over the back yard. I
ended up having to chase them down, telling them to get their own
damn Domme. This silk was mine! How rude of them....

Other things I noticed? Well, since I'm currently listening to the
kisnapped prequel, I found myself saying, "Oh, yes, ma'am" a lot.
And when I was out of the house, in public, I kept having to recite
a lot of baseball scores to myself, trying to keep things (thing)
under control. While shopping, I became so aware of that silk down
there, and what I was secretly doing to serve Lady Julia, I was
almost constantly excited. I even giggled in the check-out line....